Nov 6, 2007

Not Since My First Few Weeks Here Have I Wanted to Blog this Badly!!!!

I was struck with how normal my day was today. Just an everyday, day. I mean, I get up late... normal, right? That happens in normal life. I go to school, I teach. I lesson plan, I teach. I talk with my colleagues, I teach, I learn a little Korean. My days are so normal.


BUT I"M IN SOUTH KOREA!!!!


Yesterday I was able to talk with one of my co-teachers. I want to lesson plan with her because she has the most advanced class and I need to be able to keep her students busy. So, she comes to my desk and we plan. I like this teacher so much. She is so cute and she is the one that helped me when I was sick. She took me to the doctor and took care of me. She also helped me at the bank. So, basically, this teacher knows a lot of my very personal and private information.


Our lesson planning took probably 10 minutes, but we talked for probably 45. It's difficult here for me in strange ways. I have a support system of Americans, Canadians and New Zealanders that I can talk with if I need to, but it's nice... so nice... to have Korean friends too. I want this teacher and I to be friends but, I don't know how to get to know her better. I don't' know what to do (other than get sick; which she jokingly suggested) to be able to spend more time with her.
I told her this:


"I'm not very good at dropping hints."


"Dropping hints?"


"I'm not good at being subtle... I'm a very direct person."


"Oh, oh yes. You're not good at going around a topic. Me either. I'm direct."


"Yes. We call that beating around the bush!"


"Yes, yes! I know that expression."


I told her that I wanted to get to know her better, but that I didn't know how. I struggle here because I need a support system. My old support system all live in the U.S. I need a new one. But, I know from experience that when a foreigner comes to a different country, it's harder for the natives to feel really interested or devoted to getting to know the aforementioned foreigner. The natives all have a support system already. The natives have a life here, hobbies, interests, families, friends. I just have an apartment.... a small apartment.


I'm hopeful now. Sometimes I'm amazed at how much honesty is just so much more beneficial than "dropping hints" or playing games. I think it just takes a little courage to be vulnerable... I think a lot of people see vulnerability as a weakness... but it's not! It's honesty. I appreciate honesty so much! My co-teacher, Yu Mikyung, opened up to me a little, and I feel so privileged to know a little bit more about her. She's so surprising to me.


Below is a picture of me with two of my co-teachers and another English teacher. The two teachers I am standing between are my co-teachers. In the picture the one on my left is Yu Mikyung, the one on my right is Kong Changok. They are the two I have most contact with... they are both very important in my life here! I just can't get over how much of a GIANT I look like compared to these women. I normally don't feel that huge next to them... but my GOSH, I'm ENORMOUS!!


Well, peace out! More to come soon!


3 comments:

Miss Laura said...

You don't look like a giant - a redhaired goddess, but not a giant!

Anonymous said...

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! I LOVE YOU!

Anonymous said...

Who's that beautiful bombshell with the red hair??? You should wear it like that more often!! And sweetheart, Jessie would trade height with you ANY DAY OF THE WEEK!! LOVE YOU!