Jess is gone.
And, so are the Olson's and I have an abundance of cell phones and T-money cards.
But, I ran into a man in need and I met a friend brand new to Korea as well. So now Rachel is Holly and JB is Sara and Trevor... well he's still Trevor.
I feel a little emptier now and I think that's ok. I think it's ok to miss people... for people to be important to you and their absence a loss. I think it's ok to lean on your friends a little bit and I think it's ok to feel a little lost without them.
But only a little.
Certainly I know without Jess, my entire life here will be altered. I no longer have a friend just ten minutes away. I now must walk this tight rope of Korea without my safety net. I think I'm ready. I'm sure I'll be ok, even if I fall; but it's still a little scary without her.
And of course, my life will be altered without the hub of the Olson's and their home. It's like trying coming back to your home only to realize that your home is in a place you can't go and the things you're most familiar with are altered.
But it's ok... really.
My home will always be with a solid foundation. A foundation that doesn't shake and doesn't crumble. It's more than ok.
So, goodbye Trevor, Rachel and Jessica. You're awesome.
1 comment:
Have you ever read "The Four Loves" by Lewis? I'm currently reading it (ie. reading it for an hour a day at Borders cuz I'm a cheapskate who refuses to spend money on things that won't house me and/or feed me). It talks about missing people...good read! Anywayzzzzz...love you and wish you were here with me! Muah!
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